Sarah A.

Ice and The Face Ep. 191 July 13, 2018

YOU GOT THIS! Ice and The Face #191 -7.13.18- exists! Tonight, Rick and Sarah welcome back fellow dystopian cynic, Stonz! Together, we grimace hard yet chuckle softly as we dissect the fabric of existence itself. Meld your mind with our words as we verbally run-punch our way through such topicky topics as: Alternate Willy Wonka plots, a literary porn parody of Catcher in the Rye, when your baby is too heavy to save, debris, poisoned food, issues with bath salts, when forgiveness is too much, dating someone who looks like you, calling the cops on yourself, how Hungry Man TV Dinners affect culture, deep fried elk fingers, obtuse ketchup usage, rights and wrongs of hot dogs, turning hair into meat, puking seagulls, the last Blockbuster, and a whole lot more! Thank you all very much for listening!

Ice and The Face Ep. 190 July 9, 2018

Well look at you! This is Ice and The Face #190 -7.9.18- and it will simply harm you! Tonight Rick and Sarah hunker down into a bunker of hate to cheerfully seethe and foam at the mouth, while painfully, yet gleefully, delivering you a unique perspective on such grandiose topics as: Audio-book voice-overs, alternative uses for condoms, tongue-born fish-children, screaming sperm, an alternative Golden Girls story line, a senior citizen takeover, a silicone nipple and milk issue, proper cornhole flooring, a game show that pays student loans, tummy vs. belly vs. stomach, Burger King dirt, a guy who tries to “baptize” his whole family at once, drunk sandwich making, fish pedicures, and whole lot more! Thank you all very much for listening!

Ice and The Face Ep. 189 June 30, 2018

HI! This is Ice and The Face #189 -6.30.18- and it is here to put you in the car, and take you somewhere unfamiliar, and leave you there! Tonight, we kind of welcome back, reoccurring person on the show, Stonz! Together, we delve into the goings on in the world, and black out and overdose on the stupidity so badly, we don’t even know what happened. Listen, as we blather on such greasy topics as: Haunted sex walls, sock machines, sperm ghosts, a guy with exploding shoe cameras, haunted penises, Jurassic Wood, breaking into zoo gift shops, dessert onions, buddy Stonz, an abandoned house on wheels, upcycling, hot fun with bikes, weak dinosaurs, a fatberg museum exhibit, testicles in exchange for an air conditioner, plug-in lawnmowers, and a whole lot more! Thank you all very much for listening!

Ice and The Face Ep. 188 June 21, 2018

Well OMG! This is Ice and The Face #188 -6.21.18- and it is here to tear your mind apart…but in a fun way. Tonight, we welcome Czar of SuperTMH2.com, John Lacki! Joined together by way of similarly thinking brain meats, we throw down the gauntlet of truth and with our insanely mighty incisors, we bite down, tear flesh, and spit into your face, the juicy truths on such sweet and salty topics as: Coked up eels, fish sperm sacks and human tongues, giving your own home a low rating on Yelp, a kangaroo in Montana, angry peacocks attacking luxury cars, archaeologists at Woodstock, ghost hunting and science, briefcase cheeseburgers, woodworkers who chew their projects, man-caves vs she-sheds, public pool induced infections, roast beef with hand-cleaner seasoning, hot dogs that give black eyes, a bank robber who used his ID, being killed by a coffin, violent defecation, and a whole lot more! Thank you all very much for listening!

Ice and The Face Ep. 187 June 1, 2018

YEAH! This is Ice and The Face #187 -6.1.18- with somewhat special guest, Stonz! Tonight, we make our way through the pustular nightmares of the human world. While wading through the muck of the mystery fluids of life, we dive head first into such topics as: The explosive burial of William the Conqueror, foot condoms, foot fetish limits, dominance-farts and nipple pinching, weathered nipples, fish-skin vaginas, idiot cake-makers, nice-foot printed socks, tattoo artists who can’t spell, wedding llamas, donkey sealant, bi-sexual beetle misconceptions, selling your school on Craig’s List, a guy with a snake at Planet Fitness, and a whole lot more! Thank you all very much for listening!

Ice and The Face Ep. 186 May 3, 2018

LOOK! This is Ice and The Face #186 -5.3.18- and it will rip ALL your scary scabs off with great force! Tonight, Rick and Sarah welcome back to the show, dominant force on the internet, John Lacki of SuperTMH2.com! Together we build a blanket fort out of blankets and huddle together, shielding ourselves from the emerging mushroom cloud of normal person living. Thumbing through the endlessly unfinished book of regular life, we read and discuss such hotly important topics as: The newest yoga pant technology, clown problems, murderous clown women, a car hanging off a bridge as a joke, Sweet Jesus Ice Cream, coypu issues, de-veining shrimp and rats, when sex with a car goes wrong, sweating french fry grease, the new He-Man movie, and a whole lot more!

Ice and The Face Ep. 169 Oct. 6, 2017

Hello creatures of Earth, and welcome to the germ-infested episode #169 of Ice and The Face on 10.6.17! Tonight we saddle-up our most diseased microbes, ride the human waste fields of this sad and miserable Earth-sewer, and, after a long and arduous journey, declare ourselves victorious atop the cesspool of human misery with cupcakes and helium balloons. On tonight’s episode, we take you on a romp hither and thither with such mind-blowing topics as: Fun with sauerkraut, Big Foot Juice, Candle-Day accidents, questionable bank robbery, old school social niceties, the ins and outs of saying god bless you, Xena the Warrior Princess and baths, hand-written letters, digging up graves for treasures, covered wagon etiquette, graveyard real estate, respect for the anus, wiping with too much enthusiasm, toothbrushes and toilets, how aliens would see humans, hacking smart butt plugs, stealing breast milk, strangers eating your waste, fun with severed hands, and a whole lot more! Thank you all very much for listening!

Chronic

Sarah’s blog

Chronic

 

There are days, like the ones I have had lately, where the word “chronic” literally rings through my head every few minutes.  Constantly popping its head back up like a curse.  It is the word that engulfs my entire existence, and even during times when symptoms are a bit reduced, the truth of the word follows every action I manage to achieve.

Being in my mid-thirties, now, I have lived through seeing many people I know or are connected to, get ill from various illnesses;  some much rarer or confusing than others, and many of them very painful or complicated.  After finding treatment, going through the healing process, they continue on, somewhat changed and more grateful for their health, to live the rest of their lives.  I honestly can’t imagine what that might be like.  Of course I have had many temporary things wrong with me through the years, whether they were illness or injury, just like you probably have, but all those things, from the least to the most painful, are so very different than what it is like to have a chronic illness and chronic pain.

I think it is pretty human to get used to things as they are once they are the same for long enough.  I imagine this is why people say things like “time heals all wounds”, or “it gets easier every day”, when something terrible happens.  Obviously the idea is that the bad thing has happened, life is continuing on, and the longer you spend living back in that reality, the more the terrible thing starts to fade from your foremost thoughts and emotions.

I say that to try to impress on you the true heartbreak a life of chronic pain and illness carry along with it.  As symptoms flare and subside, which can happen for days, weeks, months, or even a year, we get used to the new reality.  If we are “lucky” enough to have something that has hurt for five years finally start to subside for a small amount of time, our human nature, the part that lets all wounds heal with time, cannot help but get used to that small new freedom.  It isn’t without complete skepticism, of course.  I am well aware that any one of my symptoms subsiding momentarily just means they will be back at some later point.  When that later point finally shows up, though, the heartbreak is hard to explain.  “Chronic” also means a life of chronic disappointment.  Something you could do last week isn’t necessarily going to be something you can do an hour from now.  When enough hours have passed, though, where you could do it, the moment it is snatched away again leaves a hole much bigger than the last time it happened.  The holes get so big over time that the abyss it creates swallows you, sometimes completely.

As you grow older with a chronic illness, you have to accept new losses completely outside of yourself.  When everyone I knew had just graduated high school and were planning to go to college, I was calling the admissions office of the school of my dreams to keep persuading them to push off my start date because at the time I had a home nurse and was on IV medicine.  I did this over and over again, so thoroughly determined to achieve this dream of mine.  Except that dream, and many more, would never really be achieved.  After so many delays I was finally told I would have to reapply for admission, understandably.  I never did.  I would never be in a position after that point where moving out of state, on my own, and doing every little thing from morning to night that every normal person does, would be achievable to me alone.

So you watch as everyone moves on to new aspects of their adulthood.  Exploring the things they love and discovering what might one day end up being their careers.  It happens around you much the same way you see those clips in movies where everyone in a city is moving sped up but the camera is focused on the one still person in the crowd.  You watch the entire world move and grow around you, and you do not grow with it.  You do not move on, you do not enter these different phases of life most adults you know do, because you simply cannot.  

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